In terms with life....

In terms with life again ... Oh no, rather life is in terms with me again, guess this will serve as a better statement to put across, tried, tested, weathered, beaten, knocked to the ground knees scraped, dreams shattered at every turn and step - never lose faith, keep hitting bigger, harder, better for what you want to come and kiss your feet and then it will fall at your feet. That day you find the light and then you believe- yes, the hustle was worth it and life, this bitch has to come to terms with you sooner or later it will....and you win.

Bitter sweet experiences, little cheesy insults, inferiority pressing your throat, you can hardly breathe; shoulders crushed and shrugged together lost the way, can't find it anyhow, and cannot ask anyone what to do... May be that's why it is said that the toughest battles are fought in the inner chambers of your mind and heart with you and yourself and never with someone outside... Yes that is 100000% true and you have to live and realize this to feel it. I tell you this feeling is priceless and amazing, one of the most fabulous feelings ever you can experience in life....

Life is not made of consistency. That's how you die one day at a time. Life is made of changes, memories, and wicked plans, and the pleasure that comes from freedom, the freedom which you need to pay certain price for, the freedom for which you need to slog your butt for, the freedom which you need to work to realize day in and day out and there is no short cut.

What are you waiting for? Someone to come and kick your ass? Someone to come teach you which direction to go next or what else to do, if that’s the case then remember, every day, every situation, every step, every turn of life is teaching you something, sending a message for you to observe change, reinvent yourself and move on  and to surrender to the current moment. Serve the moment. It's the only master you need to listen to… if you still have doubts then I suggest you remember why, where and how you started?

Every label you claim you have from before is just vanity. You were a doctor? You were from an IIM or a Harvard of MIT? You had millions? You had a family? Nobody cares. It’s not about money, my friends but money is a decent measuring stick. When people say "it’s not about the money" often they are really saying, "I'm really scared it's ALL about the money."

There will be many days where you don’t love what you are doing. If you are doing it just for love then it will take much much longer than what you planned or thought of achieving. When I love, I'm happy. When I debate, and wonder, and want, and control, and believe, I'm not as happy. Do what you do with love and success is a natural symptom.

At the end of the day it doesn’t matter 'coz eventually you’re dead and then it’s hard to reinvent yourself, while you are alive, stay alive and keep moving…at least you will live on your terms and life will come to your terms sooner or later...

Need for greed

I have a bad habit of being brutally honest and practical, I call it bad habit coz 99.% of the people around me in the small world of mine aren't upfront, honest up to my face, it may hurt, but I would rather prefer a hurting truth than a comforting lie. Not that I don't lie I do, as long as it will help me avoid few extra questions, which needs some explanation about what's going on in my life and I might as well just say I am doing well- I am fine.

Let me tell you something, we cannot and won't always be fine, deep inside we all know it. This does not essentially mean that I am nastily narrow and a negative person and I am not too depressed however, I have gained a conviction to say that I have accepted success and failure with the same smile- it took long to practice and go thru toughest times to be this, but now I am just there having my head high very well in my hands, controlled and having it well tamed - I don't look life from a tragic point of view it's like i don't dramatize life, I would rather live it : what happened, what's happening and what might happen are the sum total of consequences  for the actions of my own and reactions to others actions

A mans relationship with greed is a deeply personal thing, let me not be biased may be I should rather say a human's.. It can be anything for that matter career, money, some materialistic things we crave for, we want to get our hands on , we want to own ? How many times do we actually let out what we want ? To ourselves in the mirror-  Some times it looks like a purest form of greed, may be it is for others but if you want it, then you want it - period!

When I hit the bed at the end of the day all I would imagine is all that good things I want to happen in my life, I am sure most of us do that, make scenarios in our head coz it makes us feel good, to end the day with a good thought or imagination  in fact most of us do this during all the times, coz that one thought can motivate us to take that extra mile, to make things happen the way we want them to.

Every need when met has the end but the greed cannot stop, the moment we get something remember, we lost it! These experiences are expensive but they are worth it trust me they are, never ever forget the value of people, things are always under guarantee / warranty and can be  exchanged or returned but people can't. Once you achieve something the other one drives you to slog your butt all over again, we do find that enjoyment in working for something which we want not something we just need. The only question : what's next ? has all the answers of life hidden in, let's take a moment in solitude to enjoy the present what we got and who we have beside us. The sooner you put that question to yourself the sooner it keeps you from living in that moment.

Wanting not to want is also a want ! Wanting and not wanting are both you. Hence that moment of wanting can never stop. The cart will always be way before the horse, please watch your step during you run.

To sum it up : I am hungry, I can eat only as long as my stomach is full - I would earn my meal,  I would relish it , I relax with a happy belly and I am done! If I could get this feeling to another person- then my life has a meaning!

This was about need - greed - want - all three are extremely essential as long as they won't cross the line :-)

Underrated happiness

Yes, It’s been long time and I was quiet tired, it’s been a long life, days are too long and years are quick it’s been 3 of such quick long years I am here in TX if I clink thearly. Sometimes it was real hard, sometimes I took it easy. I care for everything and nothing at the same time more or less I am like a child packed in a man’s body. It aint easy being me but it would probably be worth it, at least I feel so at the end.

Chasing dreams has been a long ride and the race seems to be much longer than I thought, so more or less running towards my dreams, tripped over the reality of time and situations I hit my head hard on the truth - that I am a human being not a superman or a gifted soul to just blind fold my eyes to the reality of life and run like horse in the race. I am much lesser to that of a horse, but the lashes of cane on my back have been equal to what a horse experiences. I need to figure out how many of them leave a scar.

As I pour myself another drink staring at the ice rocks melting their way down into the finest 15yr old scotch, I remembered that I should sometimes do what I love, and mm, yeah there are many such things which we don’t care about life or we get too busy to notice, rather I should call them as underrated happiness’s- some of them which I could notice, imagine or experience is what this is all about:

Most of our lives are consumed by work/career/ profession we choose to be in. We might have read many quotes, advises, short stories on the web, social media-networking sites about balancing time, managing family, leaving office on time blah blah blah…. I did too, we read, we think it’s meaningful; it makes sense, later in a quick minute we are back to our rigmarole of daily crap of whatever it is…

I for one am an intense person; I live life to the deep intensity possible, be it on my failure, success, pain, happiness, peace and everything else embraced everything in life till now . ‘Coz I feel should live every experience, every emotion and every feeling truly and completely only then that’s life- If I may say so?  May be the drill has been long, so cut right in to the chase- Underrated happiness:

I am happy and thankful for the clothes that fit a little too snug because it means I have enough to eat- When was the last time you went home hungry after a long ass day to see your favorite food cooked by your loved one’s for you - wife/mother/sister/friend isn’t that happiness?

I am thankful and blessed to see a lawn that has been mowed, windows that have to be washed and gutters that need fixing because it means I have a home to live in- irrespective I own it or I lease it- Did you go home late after a tiring day at work to see a fresh and well-made sheets on the bed to tuck in and sleep, that for sure is happiness!!

Had a sick day, frustrated, sulked at work all day for things not happening the way you want to? Missed payments or just lost a deal in sales or whatever, not able to find reasons as to why it happens to you always, reach home with the same cracked nut head and your loved ones just then gives you a back rub and gently pressing your shoulders- saying everything is going to be okay, would you really need anything else to be happy about? - If yes, you need to go see a doctor, I truly think you need to.

I will borrow a line I read from somewhere I read, I am not sure who wrote this-‘Life is what happens when you are busy making another plans’. Please stop by and enjoy these little happiness’s, never let the sadness of your past and the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present, a good meal, a restful sleep, nice music melody, a funny conversation, a good workout, this is what makes you who you are, Life is a circle do not try to live in squares- 

Fought too long for what you want, Long and hard to keep it, but longest is to let it go. So dear pal-NOW is the only existence before it dissolves into something called tomorrow live it up – 

Toodle-loo!

Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow.

Getting bored of traveling for the first time, Dallas to New York for a dear friends engagement , hence I thought  I will reach some untouched words wandering in my head for a while and started typing this lines. I hope you will like or relate yourself in any stupid corner of this latest scribble....

It's been a while I have been living...and all I have been living was in three states of time which crisply I can say as this title...

Many of us complain of wasting time and a very little group of folks don't, as they make use of time constructively to succeed and stay happy.... I for one, definitely  do not belong here in this group. When in teens or rather  when we are young , we listen to this "wasting time" a lot at home or school/ college and then you get to listen the same when you start to work.... May be now I can call it slacking or whiling away the time of passing the time and so on...

After turning an year older recently this got me thinking what is this wasting of time... I say I got-"wasted with the time", time was constant it goes on, not matter whether I go or not.... Yes I got wasted, I turned a little wise from being stupid, I stopped people from pushing me around all the time, I realized I can't always be happy, I accepted reality and now the best part, I acted stupid all over again( sometimes on something's).......I realized what I gotta do and where I had to go... I lost my charm over the years and I still keep loosing my hair which I think is kinda great deal  for me now....and I learnt that all that happens is that we keep dissolving in the so called yesterday, today and tomorrow....don't we?

Over all these years I learnt how to use time & things, yeah and in this process even I got used sometimes for good and sometimes for not so good... In my 10"s I saw people using things and valuing people, by the time I hit 20"s this changed the other way round, and if you are reading this now in 2013 and can understand what I am saying, I don't need to tell you what it is like today, after yet another decade. But on a different angle I thought what is your life for if you are not useful, if you are not put to use somewhere or the other.... Get dissolved in time and get used it's okay you gotta travel no matter what, even if you don't time takes you along if not places, then for sure ages!

My Experience is food for my brain. And all these years back home and a little while away from home as been a rich meal. I suppose this should be no surprise that my brain will burp the time in Texas for a long long time in the years to come, and I got lots of food waiting for me and I am equally eager.

Ambition is only understood if it's to rise to the top of some imaginary ladder of success.... I do have one I don't deny it but it is equally important for me to satisfy my soul. People can and will be able to see the clothes I wear the home I stay or the car I drive, but deep inside its only me who knows whether I have reached where I need to, it is foolishness if I try to be totally satisfied, but yeah if I can satisfy my soul to an extent It's good because I for myself know that, I have been putting in all I can to make things happen I would prefer to die trying than to compromise....

 My Yesterday was a great teacher, It taught me to laugh, to cry to learn, unlearn be vulnerable but Never Give up and Fight for what is Right and I am trying my best to do something better Today so that me and my people can welcome Tomorrow with a Smile....

Your Version of My Life..?

How have you all been, I don't know how many of you actually follow this junk I write but yes for all the folks who do, I wanted to quickly check on you. As it's been a while I wrote, I thought I might as well try to make some sense another time....

Arrogance in this post is absolutely 0%.... and I mean it.... (I want to say this because I do not write out of frustration of my own life lol; it is just another byproduct of thoughts here and there)

I am a lunatic workaholic creature, who has no other ambitions than making it big in life, especially after realizing that there is only one word which defines a Man, Success!  Coming back to this times topic. You’re Version of my Life............ It does not change a thing.

I always wanted to meet myself in someone else's point of view, just like all of you I was also curious to know what people think about me, after some of the most bitter experiences I narrowed down to a fact, which is already widely known and acclaimed that- "what people think of you is none of your business" (not sure who said this).

Kiss My Ass! Yeah you heard it right the more you speak about me behind my ass, you are in a great position and accessible to Kiss my ass and you are most welcome to do so, Else you have a better thing to do, look after yourself, as Bob Marley said, before you raise your finger on me make sure your hands are clean... are they?  Easiest thing to do on a planet is to judge/speculate or just say it out thinking that you know everything, have you been in my shoe to draw a conclusion, or have you been as certain as me to draw a curtain?

Let’s never do that, you never know what the other person's journey is all about, for instance have you been the same like in last 5yrs have you? What all happened in your life which has changed you into a person you are today? The same applies to others as well. When I started my career I learnt, a person does not grow because he invests very less time on thinking about himself, it's not mere selfishness though?! But you really need to do that sufficiently to have less regrets later on...anyways to invent your own life's meaning is not easy, but it is allowed and I think you will be happier for the trouble....

If you belong to a league of people who over think or worry about what people say or think about you, then remember: The habit of over thinking reduces with the age, as you grow old you will begin to worry less this is for sure, then why waste time during your young age - ring any bells?

Possibilities life has to offer will be endless, follow them and you will know where you have to go...Anugatchathi Pravaaha.. ( Sanskrit, meaning : go with the flow) at the same time never oppose someone else's flow every one of us will have our own plans and paths to follow.....

My Misty Moods

What are you?

Sluggish Swans...to be inactive or move very slowly, sometimes stay still they might look beautiful so, let me ask you how long will you bank on looks?

As an example : Even if you get married to the most beautiful woman/ good looking man on the planet, you will get used to them and get bored in a year...or 2 or 5 max, won't you, just because physical desires go out of the window after you reach a certain age they would become underwhelming, what would you need then, someone to talk to, share a smile with....and... may be something else.

Sharks: Active, quick , fast and agile...(it's not about attacking someone for food I mean here though!)

Yes, We are Sharks, some time or the other we are, and because of that, we landed up where we have to be, you can't be lucky all the times to end up receiving all that you need or want, can you?

Let's say, you wake up tomorrow morning, how much does your life weigh?  Let me ask you, what do you carry with you - memories, people, grudges,  friends, boyfriend, girlfriend, acquaintances, relationships (which are the heaviest components in life), words  (good - bad) which you have heard from people, negotiations, arguments, secrets, sacrifices  (sometimes for Men ‘Just nothing’, Yeah I mean it. There are times, Men are blank, they just tend to be; I for one could not figure out the reason why?) Can you actually walk carrying all these list of things? Stop for a moment and feel the weight, did I get you for a moment? Even if you carry all these how will be able to concentrate on things which you should be doing?

Predicting and Preparing for the future remains our obsession, but how about present, how much are we investing ‘Passion’ into the so called today or rather "NOW"? I guarantee 10/10 people who are living in this world are going to die, let's do something good before we follow those 10. We always wish we could have changed our past, without realizing the past has already changed us - just that our acceptance takes time.

Now imagine, you wake up with nothing, in your head or heart, totally free... can you smile freely, feel light, after a good shower and a cup of freshly brewed coffee...? Make little adjustments and compromises who doesn't make them? and leave the so called yesterdays baggage - Stay loose stay free, be friends with your past, don't let it ruin your present and future.

You come alone, you die alone, you live alone, these friendships and relationships create illusions for some moments or a brief time, Have a heart of a "Mother "-  She is Unconditional, she does not expect anything in return, always wants you to be happy and healthy, loves you the way you are, always backs you up, always listens to you, will pray for you daily and will bless you, wouldn't she?

Let me leave you with this for now :A Loving and Compassionate Life is the secret of Longevity and happiness. Problem is they can't sell pills for that, so they don't tell us the truth, do they?

Just Another Realization - Life!

Plain and empty word file on the screen staring at me to scribble something and helpless keys making some nonsense sounds, looks like this as I press them with a little consciousness at 3 am in the morning all words put together is about just another stroll thru Life!

I remember one of the best quotes I have read from Oscar Wilde: To Live is the rarest thing, most people barely exist, that's all...

By the way have you ever tried Googl'ing it or Wiki'ing it? I just did, this is what they say:

Life is a Characteristic that distinguishes objects that have "signaling and self-sustaining processes" from those that do not, either because such functions have ceased ( death) , or else because they lack such functions and are classified as inanimate. Biology is the science concerned with the study of Life.

So, typically it talks about some biology and crap. what nonsense...don't you think so? Provided you know what I am talkin about? We are talking about Human beings which is "some of us" ; no offense to "HUMAN BECOMINGS" - if you spot the difference.

I liked the wordings "signaling and self-sustaining processes". I say hell yeah! there ya go human beings...May be we have started off well inventing and discovering things for the so called Man Kind but we lost real big-big time in the real essence and have actually became "Human Becomings"

Wheel to computer to Internet to Facebook to Blogs... nothing has become difficult over times - for instance talking to someone on the speaker phone along with the video to see where they are scratching, on the phone, Laptop or any other screen you hold, across the continents. But for sureit has become difficult to help one another who is in need and we do find reasons, why should I? Do you need a reason to help someone....really?

I miss being a kid, No one cared how you dressed we were all friends and you could be yourself. When did we turn so judgmental and mean, why the hell did we actually grew up, just to screw it up?

Bloody Life is a delicious ambiguity, and I have learnt this the pretty hard way - Some poems don't rhyme, some stories don't have clear beginnings, middle or the end. Life is not about knowing - it's about having to change...taking one moment at a time and making the best of it without knowing what happens next? May be that's why I called it Delicious......mmmmm

Your religion has convinced you that there is an invisible man up above somewhere looking at whatever you are doing good or bad, and you call him God; Why don't we go look at ourselves in the mirror and ask what we did was right or wrong?

So, my pals accept that Life is under no Obligation to give whatever you want. You Understand it backwards and Live forwards!!!