Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow.

Getting bored of traveling for the first time, Dallas to New York for a dear friends engagement , hence I thought  I will reach some untouched words wandering in my head for a while and started typing this lines. I hope you will like or relate yourself in any stupid corner of this latest scribble....

It's been a while I have been living...and all I have been living was in three states of time which crisply I can say as this title...

Many of us complain of wasting time and a very little group of folks don't, as they make use of time constructively to succeed and stay happy.... I for one, definitely  do not belong here in this group. When in teens or rather  when we are young , we listen to this "wasting time" a lot at home or school/ college and then you get to listen the same when you start to work.... May be now I can call it slacking or whiling away the time of passing the time and so on...

After turning an year older recently this got me thinking what is this wasting of time... I say I got-"wasted with the time", time was constant it goes on, not matter whether I go or not.... Yes I got wasted, I turned a little wise from being stupid, I stopped people from pushing me around all the time, I realized I can't always be happy, I accepted reality and now the best part, I acted stupid all over again( sometimes on something's).......I realized what I gotta do and where I had to go... I lost my charm over the years and I still keep loosing my hair which I think is kinda great deal  for me now....and I learnt that all that happens is that we keep dissolving in the so called yesterday, today and tomorrow....don't we?

Over all these years I learnt how to use time & things, yeah and in this process even I got used sometimes for good and sometimes for not so good... In my 10"s I saw people using things and valuing people, by the time I hit 20"s this changed the other way round, and if you are reading this now in 2013 and can understand what I am saying, I don't need to tell you what it is like today, after yet another decade. But on a different angle I thought what is your life for if you are not useful, if you are not put to use somewhere or the other.... Get dissolved in time and get used it's okay you gotta travel no matter what, even if you don't time takes you along if not places, then for sure ages!

My Experience is food for my brain. And all these years back home and a little while away from home as been a rich meal. I suppose this should be no surprise that my brain will burp the time in Texas for a long long time in the years to come, and I got lots of food waiting for me and I am equally eager.

Ambition is only understood if it's to rise to the top of some imaginary ladder of success.... I do have one I don't deny it but it is equally important for me to satisfy my soul. People can and will be able to see the clothes I wear the home I stay or the car I drive, but deep inside its only me who knows whether I have reached where I need to, it is foolishness if I try to be totally satisfied, but yeah if I can satisfy my soul to an extent It's good because I for myself know that, I have been putting in all I can to make things happen I would prefer to die trying than to compromise....

 My Yesterday was a great teacher, It taught me to laugh, to cry to learn, unlearn be vulnerable but Never Give up and Fight for what is Right and I am trying my best to do something better Today so that me and my people can welcome Tomorrow with a Smile....

Your Version of My Life..?

How have you all been, I don't know how many of you actually follow this junk I write but yes for all the folks who do, I wanted to quickly check on you. As it's been a while I wrote, I thought I might as well try to make some sense another time....

Arrogance in this post is absolutely 0%.... and I mean it.... (I want to say this because I do not write out of frustration of my own life lol; it is just another byproduct of thoughts here and there)

I am a lunatic workaholic creature, who has no other ambitions than making it big in life, especially after realizing that there is only one word which defines a Man, Success!  Coming back to this times topic. You’re Version of my Life............ It does not change a thing.

I always wanted to meet myself in someone else's point of view, just like all of you I was also curious to know what people think about me, after some of the most bitter experiences I narrowed down to a fact, which is already widely known and acclaimed that- "what people think of you is none of your business" (not sure who said this).

Kiss My Ass! Yeah you heard it right the more you speak about me behind my ass, you are in a great position and accessible to Kiss my ass and you are most welcome to do so, Else you have a better thing to do, look after yourself, as Bob Marley said, before you raise your finger on me make sure your hands are clean... are they?  Easiest thing to do on a planet is to judge/speculate or just say it out thinking that you know everything, have you been in my shoe to draw a conclusion, or have you been as certain as me to draw a curtain?

Let’s never do that, you never know what the other person's journey is all about, for instance have you been the same like in last 5yrs have you? What all happened in your life which has changed you into a person you are today? The same applies to others as well. When I started my career I learnt, a person does not grow because he invests very less time on thinking about himself, it's not mere selfishness though?! But you really need to do that sufficiently to have less regrets later on...anyways to invent your own life's meaning is not easy, but it is allowed and I think you will be happier for the trouble....

If you belong to a league of people who over think or worry about what people say or think about you, then remember: The habit of over thinking reduces with the age, as you grow old you will begin to worry less this is for sure, then why waste time during your young age - ring any bells?

Possibilities life has to offer will be endless, follow them and you will know where you have to go...Anugatchathi Pravaaha.. ( Sanskrit, meaning : go with the flow) at the same time never oppose someone else's flow every one of us will have our own plans and paths to follow.....

My Misty Moods

What are you?

Sluggish Swans...to be inactive or move very slowly, sometimes stay still they might look beautiful so, let me ask you how long will you bank on looks?

As an example : Even if you get married to the most beautiful woman/ good looking man on the planet, you will get used to them and get bored in a year...or 2 or 5 max, won't you, just because physical desires go out of the window after you reach a certain age they would become underwhelming, what would you need then, someone to talk to, share a smile with....and... may be something else.

Sharks: Active, quick , fast and agile...(it's not about attacking someone for food I mean here though!)

Yes, We are Sharks, some time or the other we are, and because of that, we landed up where we have to be, you can't be lucky all the times to end up receiving all that you need or want, can you?

Let's say, you wake up tomorrow morning, how much does your life weigh?  Let me ask you, what do you carry with you - memories, people, grudges,  friends, boyfriend, girlfriend, acquaintances, relationships (which are the heaviest components in life), words  (good - bad) which you have heard from people, negotiations, arguments, secrets, sacrifices  (sometimes for Men ‘Just nothing’, Yeah I mean it. There are times, Men are blank, they just tend to be; I for one could not figure out the reason why?) Can you actually walk carrying all these list of things? Stop for a moment and feel the weight, did I get you for a moment? Even if you carry all these how will be able to concentrate on things which you should be doing?

Predicting and Preparing for the future remains our obsession, but how about present, how much are we investing ‘Passion’ into the so called today or rather "NOW"? I guarantee 10/10 people who are living in this world are going to die, let's do something good before we follow those 10. We always wish we could have changed our past, without realizing the past has already changed us - just that our acceptance takes time.

Now imagine, you wake up with nothing, in your head or heart, totally free... can you smile freely, feel light, after a good shower and a cup of freshly brewed coffee...? Make little adjustments and compromises who doesn't make them? and leave the so called yesterdays baggage - Stay loose stay free, be friends with your past, don't let it ruin your present and future.

You come alone, you die alone, you live alone, these friendships and relationships create illusions for some moments or a brief time, Have a heart of a "Mother "-  She is Unconditional, she does not expect anything in return, always wants you to be happy and healthy, loves you the way you are, always backs you up, always listens to you, will pray for you daily and will bless you, wouldn't she?

Let me leave you with this for now :A Loving and Compassionate Life is the secret of Longevity and happiness. Problem is they can't sell pills for that, so they don't tell us the truth, do they?

Just Another Realization - Life!

Plain and empty word file on the screen staring at me to scribble something and helpless keys making some nonsense sounds, looks like this as I press them with a little consciousness at 3 am in the morning all words put together is about just another stroll thru Life!

I remember one of the best quotes I have read from Oscar Wilde: To Live is the rarest thing, most people barely exist, that's all...

By the way have you ever tried Googl'ing it or Wiki'ing it? I just did, this is what they say:

Life is a Characteristic that distinguishes objects that have "signaling and self-sustaining processes" from those that do not, either because such functions have ceased ( death) , or else because they lack such functions and are classified as inanimate. Biology is the science concerned with the study of Life.

So, typically it talks about some biology and crap. what nonsense...don't you think so? Provided you know what I am talkin about? We are talking about Human beings which is "some of us" ; no offense to "HUMAN BECOMINGS" - if you spot the difference.

I liked the wordings "signaling and self-sustaining processes". I say hell yeah! there ya go human beings...May be we have started off well inventing and discovering things for the so called Man Kind but we lost real big-big time in the real essence and have actually became "Human Becomings"

Wheel to computer to Internet to Facebook to Blogs... nothing has become difficult over times - for instance talking to someone on the speaker phone along with the video to see where they are scratching, on the phone, Laptop or any other screen you hold, across the continents. But for sureit has become difficult to help one another who is in need and we do find reasons, why should I? Do you need a reason to help someone....really?

I miss being a kid, No one cared how you dressed we were all friends and you could be yourself. When did we turn so judgmental and mean, why the hell did we actually grew up, just to screw it up?

Bloody Life is a delicious ambiguity, and I have learnt this the pretty hard way - Some poems don't rhyme, some stories don't have clear beginnings, middle or the end. Life is not about knowing - it's about having to change...taking one moment at a time and making the best of it without knowing what happens next? May be that's why I called it Delicious......mmmmm

Your religion has convinced you that there is an invisible man up above somewhere looking at whatever you are doing good or bad, and you call him God; Why don't we go look at ourselves in the mirror and ask what we did was right or wrong?

So, my pals accept that Life is under no Obligation to give whatever you want. You Understand it backwards and Live forwards!!!

Random Ramblings

It takes a while to write, dedicatedly about something we feel, but I thought mind has no set limits or boundaries, there are about 86400 moments ( Source of the number= no of seconds in a day) in everyday which can provoke or ignite any stupid, random thoughts in us, and I have just scribbled a little from past few days... which I guess can make a little meaning.

When was the last time you felt your breath, apart from when you were in the gym or during a jog? How many moments have you actually lived today as you read, may be how many can you remember from today:  1, 2 or 6? You will never know the value of  a moment till it becomes a memory it can be either sweet or bitter. don't get too engrossed into things that you actually don't take care of these little moment, all of them put together is the so called Life.

The harder the life is the stronger you will become, the stronger you will become the easier life will seem to be, the fact of the matter is that life has been a bitch all the time just that we should be changing according to its bitchiness. End of the day Bad times will always wake you up to the good stuff you weren't paying attention to.

We are leading a sub-conscious life and just flowing where the wind blows. Stand still. Feel the wind blow against you and start walking against it. If it is stronger than you are, then you were flowing with it anyways..But if you can walk against it, that means you are kicking some butt, and if you aren't then you are getting knocked down on your ass...either ways.....you won't stop walking you need to or you will end up being a part of the flow-  make your choice and keep trying.

What's right and what's wrong? What's right for me might be wrong for you, everyone equally has their own versions of truth too....I was just thinking if there is any definite right/wrong , good/bad created for the whole man kind? for one...we know what we do its right or wrong so as long as we can be answerable to our self and sleep on a pillow called conscience every night I think it's enough.

It's high time I thought I should say this and remind you all about our Parents, When was the last time you had time for them, spoke to them and checked on them? We got to remember that they are growing old and they need us, there is no one else who knows you or understands you more than your Mother, I love mine...for all the reasons she is, she does, she says.... Go now, tell her you love them and you can do anything possible to make them happy and comfortable coz that's all they need some time of ours and comfort!!

That's pretty much for now. Adios amigos.... !

Regret

This is perhaps one of the words in English which I hate the most, more than just the word the feeling, or the realization is what I cannot stand, that does not mean I am exempted from this, naah I experienced it and hence I hate it.

Now that we agree that - anyways we cannot escape being regretful of things which you do or things which you did not. Let’s crack this word to start with, it's about priorities which we need to put in an order to accomplish things , for every one as individuals we need to chalk out the priorities clearly, maybe that's when we will know what we actually want out of life, and what gives us happiness.

Before I go forward I wanted to mention something here: As a Certified Internal Auditor I was a part of several Information Security Certifications like ISMS or PCI- DSS ( it might be heavy techie jargon for some of you but it is all together about Information security in Corporate Organizations), everywhere as  a part of security measures we were able to  put in lot of controls in place and everyone who mentored me during this activities always stated that HUMAN'S are the weakest link....and I couldn't agree more and I guess you understand what I mean. This was just an example before I could say:  " To be genuinely happy please tie your life to a Goal, not to People or things".

Financial hungers, Fleshy needs, wealthy desires, dream vacations, diplomatic thoughts, thirst for success, blissful moods, lot of cheers and a little tears are all a part of this journey called life, in due course of pursuing all these wants and desires you never know when life passed away, no matter what clock ticks and it's not going to stop for you or me. There must be some fine mornings or warm evenings when we sat down to actually track down things which we have done or which we did not  due to which we are made what we are to that moment- and that's when we realize where does this Regret sit comfortably.

We know what we did yesterday, good or bad it's done, lets watch out on what we are doing today so that tomorrow can be better, We think too much about the past and compare the present with it, instead of going out and hunting for the future- at the end we need to accept the responsibility of our life, we should know that, "it is we" who will get where we want to go no one else. If any of your regrets gave someone else a smile, or made somebody's day, let's not count it as one, as long as you can make someone happy can never be regretted...So Go...make it count, count them less and Live On!

Struggle:

Hope all of you guys are having a good ride....huh? Things and times have been tough but thankfully I do find time to stay alone to pen down some words...here is a new one - STRUGGLE

To find you somewhere, to do something purposeful, to get out of something or to get into something is all when it occurs.

All through the journey of life we do nothing but will be passing through one struggle to another, you finish up with one and the other one will be waiting for you.

I for one understood something in my three decades of life (for some of you it might me less, but yeah I expect to live another 3 more, to experience the rest) is that every Struggle in life has shaped you into the person you are today and we got to be Thankful to the hard times as they can only make you stronger. And I am sure every single thing happens in our life is preparing us for a moment which is yet to come in the future.

Just wanted to be precise on the hard times etc. The hard times are something's which I mean we face are not in the battle with the entire world, but that is something which happens deep within us, to be or not to be! And yeah -"If it is to be it is up to me". Either of your choices mostly likely will result in Good or bad, if it is bad you have to struggle, and even if it is Good you will struggle anyway to sustain it for a long time.

I really don't think life is about the I-could-have-been’s. Life is only about the I-tried-to-do. I don't mind the failure but I can't imagine that I'd forgive myself if I didn't try. To enjoy you first need to endure it- what do you fellas say?

Life essentially should be a cheat, and you should have experienced it by now, each one of you. It sets you up for failures. You can never understand why things happen and why they don't, you find no rhythm in it. But at the end it's not the heights of happiness or pleasure you are to experience, but those deeper satisfactions which come out of your Struggle are Meaningful!

As I believe in God, I would like to leave this with one last line-Life has meaning only in the struggle. Triumph or defeat is in the hands of the Gods. So let us celebrate the struggle!