Another day above the ground!

By the time we begin to understand the day, the night of darkness is upon us. That’s how life is. Sometimes we are determined, that we plan to get things done in a certain way or rather want things to happen, and they wouldn’t. If you are lucky you might end up having better than you thought. Otherwise, I will leave you to dig into your own lives experiences and imaginations.

Facts do not exist, interpretations do. Life is merely made of a series of judgments made on insufficient data, and if we waited to run down all our doubts, it would flow past us, sad but true. Maybe that’s why they said- Life first conducts the exam and then teaches you something out of it. Learning from our own lives experiences is totally optional, but the lesson is repeated until you learn, so there no escape :)

Its better that we dare to be naive, at least if we have the WHY of our life, We shall get along with almost ANYHOW. The whole life would always, and always be a trial and error with no guarantee. No one can surely say what works for you until you try and realize what does.

I can confidently say that free will, free-thinking has -made its way into the world, thinking the possibilities, breaking the barriers: of what they said, how it should be, how should you conduct yourself.  But the WHY’s were always not answered.  Compared to our childhood and the kinds of today. Your children are not your children. They are the Sons and Daughters of Life's longing for itself. You may house their bodies but not their souls, for their Souls Dwell in the house of tomorrow, one you cannot visit, not even in your Dreams.  

How could  I not agree as - My father worked for the Government for all 40 years of his career, he stuck to his job. Clocked-in Clocked-Out and retired. About 3 years before he retired I started my race ( Rat- Race I can say in literal terms). Despite my multiple attempts, I failed to make him understand what exactly I do for a living - not that he was not educated but definitely he was not educated during my time enough to understand what kind of profession I was into. He had a good ride, he was happy, married had 3 kids brought them up decently, retired from work and played his part and waiting to check out.

Everything was and is a pattern of life. We cannot see the Pattern because we are a part of it, by the time you realize how it actually past, we know we have come a long way. So, it is important to take a break, re-evaluate and set the course. Because what’s passing is time and age. Age is not particularly an interesting subject for me, anyone can get old, all of us did too :). All we have to do is try to live long enough.

There is nothing called a Peaceful Life. It’s a fallacy, don’t believe anyone who promises you one. You are gonna continue to evolve in unforeseen ways. You are full of complexities and wonders. Life's unpredictability will draw these. We slowly dissolve into tomorrow’s, now is the only existence as time moves in one direction while memories move in another. You will be told in a hundred ways, some make sense, and few wouldn't.   To keep climbing,  and never be satisfied with where you are. Who you are and what you are doing. There are a million ways to sell yourself out and I guarantee you will hear them. 

By the time you want to realize if you are happy doing what you are doing you are drawn into it so deep, you cannot come out of it, just then responsibilities kick in, and so do the payments. The necessity of doing it will take over and you are trapped. Finding happiness is highly important to continue, instead of staying in the misery. If you think your demons have caged you? In your memory and in your obsessions they are dying to be free, but in reality, your heart is for sure surrounded by the rib cage!

Your best performance or your best self would eventually become your enemy, people will relate and recognize you with those of certain benchmarks, and society and people around you would expect you to exceed the previous one. Nobody would begin to understand the struggle behind it, those sleepless nights, those tiring days, and none would ask you about them, that’s how it is, that’s how it’s going to be so. So we might as well enjoy and find our happiness in what we do and continue to draw such happiness along the way.  

Lifes does give us a lot of things, just that we only count what we do not have .. 

Peace, Love, Coffee & Cake!

Bindu.

Sign of the times...

 I missed by bus

Not sure when did the last 20yrs flew by until I read a message from a school friend ( in our chat group) that it's 2 decades we have passed out our high school. Life was so good, with that little homework and the only scary line was ' I am going to tell your mom'. Nobody cared what we wore and none judged us

Until we were in school we had the uniform and a bag full of books to carry, worrying about when it would rain and how to cover the Books from getting drenched. Waiting for every summer and to that semester( quarterly and half Yearly as we would then call them ) breaks for summer, winter so we could just pack our bags and head to ancestral  house by the country side . I don't remember the reason why but we were all truly happy, so happy that nobody could take the reason from us to be so.

Dreams and ambitions had no limits, those thoughts into a vivid and colorful world which seemed so good. Wanted to be something, and the only under lining thing was to be happy and I still remember my dream was to become a doctor  (: . I still remember I wrote this same in the autograph books of my friends while we departed from high school . No memory or moment was so true and pure after this.

Dads were the only hero we had, he was the only guy we knew so closely who could take all our tantrums and still ensured that we had everything we needed, and everything we asked for, holding his finger and going places, sitting on his shoulders to see things in a crowded fair . Crying for a New school bag every year, a bicycle when others had and that proud  show -off when we owned one. That long-ass pleading to allow us for sleepovers at friends place before exams ( we called it Combined studies) and then putting together that left over change so we can watch a night show at the nearby movies . Being at least one teachers favorite. Silly fights with siblings, and not talking to them over them, that fear or injections ( syringes) when we were sick, but the doctors ensured that we got one good in the buttock. Making those excuses Of stomach pain ( didn’t we all made a few ?) to avoid school because we haven't done the home work or some project work.

But then it all started - I mean losing the best days of life ...Just after losing the school uniform which was a ritual for about 11 years, stepped into college, Skipped classes , watched movies, played snooker tournaments . Bird watching, try and get a date or two ?!   Follow friends to bars, karaoke clubs and the list goes long. Never worried about being responsible and there came the final exams with a great struggle at last graduated. Trying to get a job, find a way to make a career and many times being a crushed napkin with dreams of being recycled.

Limbo has always been the best friend, no matter how painful it was to change the gear or shift the direction to sail, it has always  left great memories in retrospect. Isn’t it  the most important phase which occurs multiple times ?When we move on to something new, something different and something better ( being positive ). You make new friends, the old ones move on, some stay in touch some take it easy , its all about making an effort and a little intent. Let’s keep the balance sheet aside, for what you gave, and what you got - At the end of the day it’s all about experiences, bunch of’em, and always will be. Some made us, some broke us, but each and every one has made us who we are. Being thankful to all of them is the least we could do.

Just don’t be worried  that, the season is over it will be back in 12 months, so it’s up to us if we want to be a reason or season? Reason can stay from a life time if we need it, seasons often change – follow the heart , it’s only the heart that once can see rightly – because what’s essential is invisible to the eye.  Life is always a seed ,  and so are the dreams , lets water them daily so it can grow. We have grown, rather evolved in unforeseen ways. We are full f complexities  and wonder what the life’s unpredictability will draw us in.

Life always is a foreign language , all of us miss pronounce it. Lets not try and act perfect - its as good as getting dressed up for an X-Ray!